me, confused? I think not!

I know saying that am still considering getting married to a woman, probably raised eyebrows. The thing is, though I have accepted that I am gay, I am not a transsexual who would really want to become a woman, I am no a queen nor a drag. I am also not the type of gay who would rather be burned in hell than to be in bed with a woman. Let me repeat something I’ve already stated in a few of my posts. Though I am gay and I love boys/guys, I still get attracted to and aroused by women. And I am not, closing my doors to meeting some lady who might be worthy of marrying and spending my whole life with, and be happy.

Some gay people might say that this is silly, crazy even. Maybe some people might even think that I am just confused or still am confused, because staying in the closet is already robbing me of the opportunities to be happy and maybe even find some guy or gay guy who would love me for life. But at the moment, this is my stand, I don't think I am confused, I know who I am and I am just keeping my options open for now. I am not ready to come out of the closet, because it might close the door to the possibility of having relationship with women, and for some other reasons that I might divulge in some future post.

On the Cher

I've been riding the Cher buses, pag uwian nga lang. People from the south are probably familiar with the Cher bus lines. Yep, those green classy tourist buses?

I could remember during my Busko days, favorite kong bus nun MassTransit. Those were the red ones with yellow stripes. At par din quality nila. Pero mas sosyal pa rin ang Cher.

These days, ordinary buses na lang ang meron. I wonder what happened to their aircon and coaster buses. Cute yung coasters, kasi 2+2 seats lang per row instead of the standard 3+2. But of course, medyo mahal yung fare kasi nga lesser capacity.

It's a good thing merong mga buses like them. Presko and maaliwalas ang biyahe, even though you're so tired and exhausted from work already.

This week our sked was 1pm to 10pm. So I am very fortunate to still catch Cher buses at Cubao around 11pm. Minsan tiyagaan lang pag-antay.

Haay, 11pm nako kung makarating ng Cubao. Ang mga elevator sa CyberMall, dios me! Que babagal at parating punuan! Sus!

Last week when I was sked 3pm-12mn, hala! Pahirapan talaga. Sometimes I ended up riding an ordinary bus na lang. I won't ride an aircon Alabang-only bus kasi I will still need to ride a jeepney to my place.

Eh di ordinary bus na lang na hanggang Pacita, at least one ride lang.

But(!), hope I could settle na either in Pasig or along Shaw. Been having Alabang-Libis back-and-forth for a month already. Kakapagod na din. 4-5 hours a day ang nakakain for travel time alone. Haay...

Gay Expressions

I have 2 openly-gay colleagues in my class in training which of course made each and every day of our training absolutely fun and hilarious.

One is of course my dear friend Rodel whom I'll be missing since he's not part of my team.

The other one, who's more flamboyant, has several expressions made up in class. Even the straight guys picked up some of his verbal expressions.

I will list some of them here and include some usage na rin. Yung may asterisk (*) na-adapt ko na completely.

WIS = means "no", or "never" or maybe "not at all", usually done with the 'no' finger gesture {Ay, wis ang ipis!}
ENVERGA = a variation of imbierna or imberna which means "annoyed" or "annoying"; name originally taken from one of our colleague's school in Quezon {Na-enverga ako sa'yo!}
WICHELLES = an extended variation of "wis"
ERBOG = being horny or sexually stimulated {Nakaka-erbog siya...}
GURL = variation of "girl", usually pronounced by "guurrrll" {Gurrll, musta na?!}
BECKY BOOM = gay, discreet gayguy; sometimes spoken as "Vecki Voom"; also "Veckis" {Ay, mukha siyang Vecki!}
TIBOLI = lesbian; coined from "tibo" which means lesbian
*LIGWAK = varies on usage ~ failed, dead, removed, trashed out {Ligwak ang beauty mo, ning!}
*GORA = "go on", "let's go" {Gora na, ning!}

Other expressions:
*"Ay, sorry!" or Visayan-accented "Ay, sorrehh!"
*"Kamusta naman yan?!"
"Yun oh!"
"Nahiya naman ako sa ..."