:D

All alone tonight im calling out your name Somewhere deep inside this part of you remains Images of love take me back in time I don't know how it started Or why it ever had to end Something stepped inside We didn't let it in It's keeping us apart Where are you now Where are you now Is someone there tonight Holding what was mine Where are you now You wonder where I am Are you really feeling fine Going through my life without you by my side You're the only thing that keeps going through my mind And nothing that I do can take the place of you Where are you now Is someone there tonight holding what was mine Where are you now, do you wonder where I am Are you really feeling fine Ooh thinking about you girl There's gotta be a place for me Somewhere in your heart All alone tonight I'm calling out your name Somewhere deep inside this part of you remains Images of love and where are you now Where are you now Is someone there tonight holding what was mine Where are you now You wonder where I am, I need you here tonight.

I SET YOU FREE BECAUSE I LOVE YOU. . . .

huhuhu.

Some people don’t find love even in a whole lifetime that’s why we forcefully tend to find the right someone in us that could fill up the empty space within us but we r just fo0ling our selves . . . we are just creating a relationship that will end up sooner than we think and eventually, one of you will try to give-up its because your relationship is not already working the way you wanted it to be. . .

I have always believed and still do believe that IF YOU LOVE SOMEONE SET HIM FREE. . for love is like sand. . .The more you try to tighten your grip it will slip away at a greater rate. . .and ultimately you will be left with nothing in your palm except a few grains in the form of memories. . .

LIFE is totally UNFAIR!! !

we usually blame other people when this time comes and start to compare ourselves and get jealous with others not knowing that this could lead us to become vain and bitter for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself

We have the right to “LEAVE SOMEONE . . . but the least we can do is to tell them why . . . because what is even worse and even more painful than being abandoned knows that you are not even worth an EXPLANATION. . . . . .

If 2 people were not meant 4 each other, they will just have to learn and accept the reality without any burdens in their heart and should face each consequences no mater how painful it is. . .and someday they will start to realize that they made the right decision. . .

Its better to set the person free than to see him unhappy if he’s with you. . .because you can never teach his heart to love you the way you wanted it to be. . .forcing your self to be loved by others is just one of the biggest mistakes that a person may do and I’m sad to say that I AM ONE OF THEM. . .

We just have to keep it in mind that LOVE can make you the happiest soul in heaven, but don’t forget that it can also make you the most miserable person in the whole galaxy…

LETTING GO OF SOMEONE YOU LOVE

Sometimes in our relentless effort to find the person we love, we fail to recognize and appreciate the person who loves us. We miss out on so many beautiful things and simply because we allow ourselves to be enslaved by our own selfish concerns.

Go for the man of deeds and not for the man of words. For you will find rewarding happiness not with the man you love but with the man who loves you more. The best lovers are those who are capable of loving from a distance far enough to allow the other person to grow but never too far to feel the love deep within your being.

To let go of someone doesn't mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you allow that person to find his own happiness without expecting him to comeback

Letting go is not just setting the other person free, but it is also setting yourself free from all the bitterness, hatred and anger that you keep in your heart. Do not let the bitterness rare away your strength and weaken your faith and never allow pain to dishearten you but rather let you grow with wisdom in bearing it.

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Robredo wake now in Malacañang

MANILA, Philippines (UPDATE) - The remains of the late Interior and Local Government Secretary Jesse Robredo arrived in Malacañang before noon Friday for a two-day wake.

The plane carrying Robredo landed at the Villamor Airbase in Pasay City at around 10:18 a.m. after leaving the Pili Airport at past 9 a.m. The plane carrying his family and several colleagues and officials arrived earlier.

The late Interior secretary was given arrival honors by the Armed Forces. Wearing black armbands, several Cabinet members and local government officials also waited for the secretary at the airbase.

The hearse carrying Robredo left the Villamor Airbase shortly before 11 a.m.

From Villamor Air Base, Robredo's remains were escorted by the Presidential Security Group (PSG) and the 250th Presidential Airlift Wing as the funeral cortege passed through Andrews Road, Airport Road, Roxas Boulevard, Padre Burgos Street, Finance Road,. Ayala Boulevard, Ayala Bridge and Solano Street.

People also came in droves to see the funeral cortege of the late Interior secretary.

President Aquino led the arrival honors and reception ceremony for the late DILG Secretary. Robredo's funeral cortege arrived at the Palace at 11:17 am.
After the arrival honors, President Aquino had lunch with the Robredo family.
Robredo’s remains are scheduled to lie in state at the Palace's Kalayaan Hall from Friday until Sunday morning when his body will be brought back to Naga.
The Palace noted that this is the first time that a wake will be held at the hall, which was formerly named Maharlika Hall during the Marcos administration. It also decided to hold the wake at the Kalayaan Hall for easier access to the public who will visit Robredo's wake.
Memorial services sponsored by the DILG, attached agencies and the Local Government Leagues; urban poor groups; and the Kaya Natin Movement will be held from 1 p.m. to 5:30 p.m. on Friday following the reception ceremony.
Friday’s public viewing will be held from 7 p.m. to 11 p.m. after a mass at 6 p.m.
The public viewing will resume on Saturday at 8 a.m. to 5 p.m. A mass will follow at 6 p.m.
Memorial services sponsored by the Liberal Party of the Philippines and Robredo’s fellow cabinet members will then be held from 7 p.m. to 10 p.m. Saturday.
Robredo back to Naga
Robredo's remains will be brought back to Naga City on Sunday. His wife, Leni, said the late secretary preferred to be cremated and laid to rest in Naga.
The government earlier offered Robredo's family to have the late secretary buried at the Libingan ng mga Bayani.
Robredo died after the Piper Seneca plane that was carrying him crashed into the waters of Masbate last Saturday.
It took divers until Tuesday morning to find his body. The plane crash also killed his two pilot companions, Capt. Jessup Bahinting and Nepalese Kshitiz Chand.
Only Robredo’s aide Jun Abrazado survived the accident.
Robredo is survived by his wife Leni and three daughters Aika, Patricia and Jillian.
State funeral
The funeral committee, in its bulletin no. 6 issued through the Official Gazette, said the incumbent president and vice president, former presidents and vice presidents, the Senate president, the Speaker of the House, national artists, and national scientists are entitled to a state funeral.
The committee said this protocol “is based on the precedence observed by the Philippine government, which closely adheres to the protocol of the government of the United States.”
However, the President, in his capacity as head of state and commander-in-chief, has the prerogative of ordering a state funeral for any citizen who is deemed of sufficient stature to deserve such an honor.
The last state funeral was held on July 4, 2012 for the late National Scientist Perla Santos-Ocampo. The last state funeral for a former President was for the late President Diosdado Macapagal in 1997, the committee said.
The committee added that a state funeral involves the following:
1. Expenses for funeral services are defrayed by the state;
2. A Book of Condolence is opened for dignitaries in the Philippines and in foreign posts of the Philippines.
3. The term lying in state is used, which is a term used for public viewings during state funerals;
4. Arrival, Departure, and Final Military Honors are rendered.


By Dharel Placido, ABS-CBNnews.com
http://www.abs-cbnnews.com/nation/08/24/12/robredo-wake-transfers-malaca%C3%B1ang

Why I Hate Copied Facebook Statuses

Do you see updates like this on Facebook?

Every day, thousands of poorly written, copied statuses are posted on Facebook. Copied statuses suffer the worst fate of having no creativity, and they are often ignored. 90% of people won’t post these updates. Post this status and take a stand.

Ugh. I despise those updates.

Way to suck the fun out of Facebook.

I get it that there are causes you support and want to raise awareness about. We all have similar passion for issues that move us. But Facebook, Twitter, or whatever social network gives you the chance to use your own words and creativity to share your experience.

Don’t just parrot the words of others. Use this unique opportunity to change hearts and minds with your story. Why do you believe in this cause? Why should I? What can we do to make a difference besides mindlessly updating our Facebook status that only a limited network will see?

Real change requires real action. Posting to Facebook is a step, but it’s a very minor step towards real change.

So stop copying other people’s crappy statuses, shut your laptop, and get to work making a difference in the things you believe in.

How will you make this crappy world a better place?

PHat? Fat? Old? Whatever :-)

What happens if you stopped working out for almost 3 months & added burgers, fries, and soda to your "merienda" / daily snacks?

The answer? This is what happens. LOL!

My face has become round. My gosh! It used to be square. Hahaha!

Dati kwadrado eh. Hehe!

Well...I am getting older. I mean I'll be 37 this year. It comes with age ;-)

Yeah right! Who am I fooling? I'm just too lazy to exercise.

I have my own humble personal gym at home and yet I was too lazy to workout.

Maybe I should aim to become a stocky huggable bear instead of becoming lean like I used to. It's much easier that way. All I need to do is focus on the chest and arms and not worry about the tummy. I can eat whatever I want. Yehey! ;-)

Really, there are a lot of men out there who chase & hunt stocky bears, I mean my partner has some chasers of his own. Hahaha! Shhhh!!! Don't tell him I said that ;-p

 Problem is, I'm not tall. I'm only 5'7" and bears are supposed to be tall. Huhuhu! Grrr!!! :-(

Now I know why the young ones flirting with me in PRomeo call me "daddy." LOL!

Anyway, I'll be back in shape in less than 2 months. Kabisado ko na naman katawan ko eh. The tummy is my problem area. I like my weight now actually, I just want to tone my midsection. 

Cardio + Weights + Pilates will do the trick.

This was me back in 2006 teasing the cam in my gym. Yeah, I'm a tease. Got a problem? I hope not. Hehe! I was 31 and was only weighing around 130-135 lbs. I am now close to 150lbs. My stomach was really flat back then. Time really does change everything.
I sometimes miss version 2006 Toyo but we all have to freakin' age. LOL!
Hay naku tumatanda na talaga ako. Kaasar! ;-p
Moving on to another subject. This recent message in PRomeo made my day. Hahaha!

This is what I get for posting numerous shirtless pics in that website.
Napapagkamalan tuloy callboy. 
Goodness gracious, great balls of fire! At least may asim pa pala ang inyong abang lingkod. Haha!
I often get such messages like the one above especially when I was much younger.
I just delete them. Although sometimes I'm tempted to ask how much they're gonna offer just so I could find out what my ummm...market value is. Market value??!!! Hahaha!
Is my market value appreciating as I grow older like fine wine or has it depreciated over time?
Hmmm..... LOL!
Dati may nagmessage pa sa akin. 10K daw a month and ibabahay ako. 10K? Kulang yon pang monthly grocery ko no. Tapos nakita ko pa yung background ng room niya sa pic. Mukhang yari lang sa plywood ang dingding, kita yung pako, wala pang pintura, posters ang ginawang wallpaper. Dios Mio!!! Haha! Hay naku!
Oh well, the hassles of being online. A person post shirtless pics of himself and then some people immediately assume that he's some gay-for-pay?
I used get all worked up about what people think about me, but the good thing about getting older...I realized it's really what you think and feel about yourself that's most important :-)
Now if it was Ricky Martin who sent that message....well....
Ricky Martin, I love and lust you!
I promise it'll be worth it from sunrise to sundown.
All for free. All through the night!  Hehehe! ;-)

BY: toyo925

me, confused? I think not!

I know saying that am still considering getting married to a woman, probably raised eyebrows. The thing is, though I have accepted that I am gay, I am not a transsexual who would really want to become a woman, I am no a queen nor a drag. I am also not the type of gay who would rather be burned in hell than to be in bed with a woman. Let me repeat something I’ve already stated in a few of my posts. Though I am gay and I love boys/guys, I still get attracted to and aroused by women. And I am not, closing my doors to meeting some lady who might be worthy of marrying and spending my whole life with, and be happy.

Some gay people might say that this is silly, crazy even. Maybe some people might even think that I am just confused or still am confused, because staying in the closet is already robbing me of the opportunities to be happy and maybe even find some guy or gay guy who would love me for life. But at the moment, this is my stand, I don't think I am confused, I know who I am and I am just keeping my options open for now. I am not ready to come out of the closet, because it might close the door to the possibility of having relationship with women, and for some other reasons that I might divulge in some future post.

On the Cher

I've been riding the Cher buses, pag uwian nga lang. People from the south are probably familiar with the Cher bus lines. Yep, those green classy tourist buses?

I could remember during my Busko days, favorite kong bus nun MassTransit. Those were the red ones with yellow stripes. At par din quality nila. Pero mas sosyal pa rin ang Cher.

These days, ordinary buses na lang ang meron. I wonder what happened to their aircon and coaster buses. Cute yung coasters, kasi 2+2 seats lang per row instead of the standard 3+2. But of course, medyo mahal yung fare kasi nga lesser capacity.

It's a good thing merong mga buses like them. Presko and maaliwalas ang biyahe, even though you're so tired and exhausted from work already.

This week our sked was 1pm to 10pm. So I am very fortunate to still catch Cher buses at Cubao around 11pm. Minsan tiyagaan lang pag-antay.

Haay, 11pm nako kung makarating ng Cubao. Ang mga elevator sa CyberMall, dios me! Que babagal at parating punuan! Sus!

Last week when I was sked 3pm-12mn, hala! Pahirapan talaga. Sometimes I ended up riding an ordinary bus na lang. I won't ride an aircon Alabang-only bus kasi I will still need to ride a jeepney to my place.

Eh di ordinary bus na lang na hanggang Pacita, at least one ride lang.

But(!), hope I could settle na either in Pasig or along Shaw. Been having Alabang-Libis back-and-forth for a month already. Kakapagod na din. 4-5 hours a day ang nakakain for travel time alone. Haay...

Gay Expressions

I have 2 openly-gay colleagues in my class in training which of course made each and every day of our training absolutely fun and hilarious.

One is of course my dear friend Rodel whom I'll be missing since he's not part of my team.

The other one, who's more flamboyant, has several expressions made up in class. Even the straight guys picked up some of his verbal expressions.

I will list some of them here and include some usage na rin. Yung may asterisk (*) na-adapt ko na completely.

WIS = means "no", or "never" or maybe "not at all", usually done with the 'no' finger gesture {Ay, wis ang ipis!}
ENVERGA = a variation of imbierna or imberna which means "annoyed" or "annoying"; name originally taken from one of our colleague's school in Quezon {Na-enverga ako sa'yo!}
WICHELLES = an extended variation of "wis"
ERBOG = being horny or sexually stimulated {Nakaka-erbog siya...}
GURL = variation of "girl", usually pronounced by "guurrrll" {Gurrll, musta na?!}
BECKY BOOM = gay, discreet gayguy; sometimes spoken as "Vecki Voom"; also "Veckis" {Ay, mukha siyang Vecki!}
TIBOLI = lesbian; coined from "tibo" which means lesbian
*LIGWAK = varies on usage ~ failed, dead, removed, trashed out {Ligwak ang beauty mo, ning!}
*GORA = "go on", "let's go" {Gora na, ning!}

Other expressions:
*"Ay, sorry!" or Visayan-accented "Ay, sorrehh!"
*"Kamusta naman yan?!"
"Yun oh!"
"Nahiya naman ako sa ..."

 


" Sometimes we have to give up wonderful things just to make everything alright. We have to bleed alone for somebody to smile. We need those tears to flow just to save the tears of others. We have to break our own heart to fill somebody…

Female reaction to male bisexuality.

One of my most popular posts was a piece entitled “How to talk to your bisexual boyfriend” and it attracts a lot of comments from women seeking to deal with their boyfriend’s bisexuality. I thought it would be interesting to analyse the female reactions to discovering they have a bisexual boyfriend and to see if we can learn anything from it.

I apologise in advance if this article comes across as sexist. I do have a prejudice in so much as  I have experienced these situations for myself as a male who has come out as bisexual to several girlfriends. But I do think this perspective and my conclusions will be helpful to women, so if you can get over my wounded male bias and reach the end of the essay, you’ll hopefully find it useful.

Based on the comments my earlier article attracted and on emails I received privately, it would seem that generally speaking you can characterise the sentiments of women who have just discovered their boyfriend is bisexual  as some or more of the following.

1. They still love their boyfriend
2. They are angry/hurt he didn’t reveal his bisexuality sooner.
3. They are worried he might decide he is gay.
4. They want him to be true to himself.
5. They don’t want him to sleep with men on the side. (The monogamy clause).

Lets briefly deal with each and then I’ll take a more holistic discussion of the points.

(1) Women still love their bisexual boyfriends. Good! Happy days! This is an excellent and fortunate place to start. From here all things are possible.

(2) They are angry and or hurt that their boyfriends didn’t reveal their bisexuality sooner in the relationship. On this point I see varying definitions of “sooner” ranging from “before he even asked her out” to “before he asked her to marry her”. What’s more the definition of “sooner” appears to be proportional to the length of the relationship up to the revelation. Men can’t seem to win on this one, because they can never tell their girlfriends they are bisexual soon enough.

Whilst its understandable that women are going to feel hurt, particularly if they have caught their boyfriend being unfaithful. I have never heard from a woman (even one who has not been cheated on) consider all the social barriers, shame and fears a man might have about revealing his bisexuality. In our hetero dominated world, few people outside the LGBT community understand how hard it is to come out. Girls you need to be more understanding about this, especially if you and your boyfriend live in a very heterosexual social environment or have a religiously conservative background.

(3) They worry their boyfriend might decide he is gay. I’ll analyse the motives behind this fear later, but for now, I’ll just say two things, (a) we can blame every gay man that ever tried to be straight for creating this stereotype [Joking] and (b) it singularly fails to understand bisexuality as a distinct orientation to homosexuality.

Its worth noting that for many bisexual men, the last two points (4) & (5) are impossible to reconcile. A point seemingly wasted on some of their girlfriends. Due to the logical inconsistency, I tend to dismiss point (4) as tokenism or at least as being very low on the list of priorities. In fact what is far more over-riding in these circumstances isabandonment issues.

Personally, I find its telling that I have never heard from a woman, who has dumped her boyfriend because she found out he was bisexual. They all want to save the relationship, they often are unsure how to do this or whether the relationship can survive. They are often confused and hurt, but I have not heard from a woman who instantly gave her boyfriend his marching orders just because she found out he liked boys.

So I don’t think women want to leave their boyfriends. More over their objections to him sleeping with men (the monogamy clause) and their fear that he might decide he is gay, are actually two sides of the same coin and centre on their fear that their boyfriend will leave them, not vice versa.

This is what leads me to think that abandonment fears are actually at the heart of the whole issue.

Bisexual men tend to keep their sexuality a secret because they fear their girlfriend will dump them. Something I have seen no evidence of. When they reveal their bisexuality, their girlfriend then fears that their boyfriend will leave them. Again if he is bisexual there is no evidence of this either.

The unfairness about these respective fears is that the male fear of abandonment is falsifiable and can be demonstrably shown to be misplaced, ie: by coming out and discovering that your girlfriend doesn’t actually want to leave you. In contrast the female fear of abandonment is (in the short term at least) unfalsifiable and there is nothing the guy can do to show her it is misplaced.

The problem is that this female fear of abandonment tends to manifest itself with trust issues, resentment and insecurities. These become a destructive force in the relationship before sufficient time has elapsed to allow the abandonment fear to be abated.

One guaranteed cure for female abandonment fears is long-term monogamy. Some women might be able to gradually accept an open relationship whereby they allow their boyfriend to have casual male partners providing of course that they always return to their female partners afterwards. But each takes time to accept and the abandonment fears actively work actively against allowing this to happen.

I seemed to be working towards a conclusion that you are damned if you do and damned if you don’t. However, I don’t think that’s helpful or proactive in terms of relationship counselling.

The solution as I see it rests with the ability of women to quickly get over any feelings of hurt and anger they are experiencing and to rapidly resolve any abandonment fears they might have. This is easier said than done and places a heavy burden on women, but I do believe that if more women can take a cognitive approach to the situation, better outcomes ie: a loving and trusting relationship will result.

An explanation of how this might work will have to wait for another article, and whether or not you think I’m being fair towards women is also open to debate. However, I think we’ll agree that abandonment fears are a major destructive force in relationships, they cause men to lie and women to lose trust and feel insecure. Getting over abandonment fears is therefore central to a happy relationship.

Girls! Empathy and understanding is important.

I want to carry on from my last post about Female Reaction to bisexuality, which dealt with how straight women respond to discovering their boyfriend isn’t quite as straight as they thought he was. I also highlighted that central to many fears are abandonment issues and in my last post I promised a to discuss how we might get over them. But before I get onto that I wanted to explain in a bit more detail why I think this needs to be tackled instantly.

They say time heals all, but often there isn’t much time, here’s why:

Upon learning their boyfriend is bisexual, women are generally hurt and afraid, but all too often they make the mistake of focussing on their own feelings rather than recognise the difficulty this presents for their boyfriends.

After coming out with a big personal admission, men need reassurance too. If those admissions, especially concerning someone’s sexuality are not greeted with universal acceptance, then we put ourselves in a very emotionally delicate and vulnerable situation.

We bear our souls to our girlfriends, only to be told we are liars (often only by omission), cheats (often only because we have fantasies) and that we have “ruined everything”. How do you think that feels?

A little more empathy on the part of women would go a long way here. Even if you can’t accept the revelation, to at least empathise and acknowledge the difficulty we must have over-come to come out, to be grateful for the trust we have demonstrated in sharing our darkest secrets.

If this isn’t acknowledged it creates an emotional chasm between the two parties which can be difficult to bridge.

This same chasm can cause wild and incoherent responses from men. This is because of the intense confusion, rejection and condemnation we have to suddenly rationalise whilst the woman we love stands there telling us we are inadequate.

This doesn’t mean that we shouldn’t acknowledge women’s hurt and women’s feelings in all of this. Of course we should. In particular if they have been cheated on or deceived. But we need to know are partners are capable of moving on and won’t keep returning to square one. Wounds don’t heal overnight, but they don’t heal at all if you keep picking at the scab.

If a woman doesn’t seem to be able to move on, or keeps throwing her hurt back in the face of the man, then the relationship is on borrowed time, particularly if the woman failure to empathise earlier has created emotional distance.

We wont wait very long for women to get over something if they singularly fail to recognise they have hurt us in the process.

Yes I know that women might be having to come to terms with infidelity, but frankly compared to coming out as bisexual (or being outed as bisexual) that’s something which is relatively common. A Durex Global sex survey found that 22% of people have had extra-marital sex, that’s not counting affairs from unmarried couples. Infidelity happens very frequently, its hurtful and difficult to handle but most of us have to deal with it once or twice in our lifetimes.

Whereas coming out as bisexual, is a once in a lifetime experience, for about 2% of the population. Its bigger. There is more at stake. Thesocial barriers, fear and shame that men have to over-come whilst coming out or being outed is far more intense.

Failure to recognise that puts your ability to rescue your relationship in serious jeopardy.

Padyak Drayber

Kwento ng aking unang karanasan na nagpamulat sa akin sa kamunduhan. Eto ang simula ng pagka-adik ko sa titi. Enjoy readers! More to come.





“Ahh sige subo mo pa ang burat ko. Ang init ng bibig mo. Ahh, ang galing mo bata ka.” Puro ungol at halinghing ang naririnig ko mula sa lalaking tsinutsupa ko. Si Dominic—17 taong gulang, isang drayber ng padyak na pinagmamay-ari ng tito ko. 0Eto ang una kong karanasan sa pagtsupa at si Dominic ang unang lalaking aking natikman.

Maliit pa lang ako ay may kakaiba na akong nararamdaman sa tuwing nakakakita ako ng matipunong lalaki, lalo na kapag walang suot na pang-itaas. Nag-iinit ang aking katawan sa mga brusko at lalaking-lalaki ang dating—sekyu, drayber, construction worker, pulis, janitor, tinderong naglalako, kahit pamilyado at may edad—basta’t walang halong kalamyaan at macho ang dating.

Sampung taong gulang ako ng mamulat sa makamundong tawag ng laman. At ito ay sa padyak drayber na si Dominic. Kung ang ibang bata ay nahihilig sa kung anu-anong uri ng laro, mas gusto kong mapag-isa at magbasa ng libro. Isang hapon habang tulog ang aking lola at ang aking mga kapatid, nakaramdam ako ng pagkabagot. Hindi ako inaantok at natapos ko na ang aking mga takdang-aralin kaya’t lumabas ako ng bahay at naglakad-lakad. Katabi nga aming bahay ay bahay ng tito at lola ko. Nasa isang compound lamang kami nakatira. Nakita ko sa labas may kausap si tito sa tabi ng kanyang padyak.

Nang makita ko ang binatang kausap ng aking tito, may kakaiba akong naramdamang init. Si Dominic pala ito, alam ko ang pangalan niya na isang high school dropout at laging tambay sa kanto. Nag-uusap sila ng aking tito tungkol sa pagpapadyak. Habang abala sila sa pag-uusap, naupo ako sa tapat. Panay ang sulyap ko sa kanya, sa kanyang matipunong katawan at umbok sa kanyang basketball shorts. Sa aking kakatitig ay nahuli niya ako at nang magkatinginan kami, kumindat siya at iniwas ko ang pagkakatingin sa kanya. Nang tiningnan ko siya ulit, ngumiti siya na tila may malisya na siyang nagpapula sa aking mukha. Pagkatapos nilang mag-usap, nagpaalam ang tito ko at naiwan si Dominic na sinusuri ang padyak. Ilang sandali pa ay nagsimula siyang maglakad patungo sa aking kinaroroonan. Kinabahan ako at pilit kong iniwas na tumingin sa kanya.

“Kumusta? Ako nga pala si Dominic. Anong pangalan mo?”

“Nico” sagot ko na nakayuko at di pa rin makatingin sa kanya.

“Kanina ka pa nakatingin sa akin ahh. May gusto ka bang makita Nico?”

“Ha.. Ah ehh.. Wala..” Nang ibaling ko ang pagkakatingin sa kanya, nakita kong hinihimas niya ang bukol sa kanyang harapan. Napako ang pagkakatingin ko doon at para akong nagayuma.

“Tara, doon tayo sa likod ng bahay.” Kahit kinakabahan ay sumunod ako sa kanya. Sa likod ng bahay ay may palikuran at paliguan. Pumasok kami sa banyo at isinara niya ang pinto. Matapos iyon ay humarap siya sa akin. Medyo natakot ako, pero mas nangibabaw ang init ng katawan at nagsimulang tumigas ang aking titi.

Lumapit si Dominic sa akin. Naamoy ko siya, amoy ng magkahalong grasa na marahil ay galling sa padyak, sigarilyo at kaunting pawis pero hindi mabaho. Amoy ng tunay na lalaki. Imbis na mandiri ako ay mas lalo pa akong ginanahan. Kinuha niya ang kamay ko at pinahawak niya sa bukol sa harap ng kanyang shorts. Parang nanginginig ang aking kamay at buong katawan.

“Himasin mo. Wag kang mag-alala, tayong dalawa lang ang nandito. Walang makakaalam” sambit ni Dominic. Naramdaman ko ang pagtigas ng titi niya sa loob ng kanyang shorts. “Nalilibugan ako sa ginagawa mo” dagdag pa niya. Hinila niya ang kanyang shorts at brief pababa at lumabas ang kanyang tigas na tigas na ari. Ito na ang pinakamalaking ari na nakita ko at napapaligiran ito ng malagong buhok. May kaunting ugat at ang taba. Lalong lumakas ang tibok ng aking dibdib nang kinuha niya ang aking kamay at pinahawak sa titi niya. Ang init nito at ang tigas. “Jakulin mo ako.” “Paano?” ang tugon ko sa kanya. Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko at pinaikot sa titi niya at nagsimulang igalaw. Nakuha ko agad ang ibig niyang sabihin at nagpatuloy. “Bilisan mo pa, ahh..” Pilit niyang pinigil ang pag-ungol ng malakas.

Parang natural sa aking na lumuhod sa harap niya habang patuloy ang pagsalsal sa kanyang uten. “Isubo mo” utos niya sa akin. “Ha.. ayoko, ang laki.” “Sige na, magugustuhan mo yan. Parang lollipop lang yan” at pilit na pinasok ang titi niya sa bunganga ko. Napabuka ako ng bibig para maipasok ang mala-higante niyang uten. Muntik na akong mabilaukan sa haba at taba nito. “Ahh, putang ina. Ang init ng bibig mo, Nico.” Sinagad niya ang pagkakapasok ng titi niya at medyo naluha ako sa laki, pero pinilit kong maipasok ang kabuuan nito. Umabot sa ilong ko ang bulbol niya at amoy na amoy ko siya. Para akong nahilo sa pagkalalaki niya. Heto ako, isang batang musmos, nakaluhod sa harap ng isang padyak drayber na tambay at subo ang buo niyang ari. Labas pasok ang tita niya sa bibig ko. Basang-basa ito ng laway ko na tumutulo sa gilid ng aking bibig.

“Dilaan mo bayag ko.” Bigla niyang inilabas ang titi niya at pinasok ang itlog niya sa bibig ko. Mas lumakas pa ang amoy niya, amoy ng isang tunay na lalaki. Dinilaan ko ang dalawa niyag itlog at kitang-kita kong nakatitig si Dominic sa akin na mukhang sarap na sarap sa ginagawa kong pagdila. Pinasok niya ulit ang titi niya sa bibig ko at hinawakan ang magkabila kong pisngi. "Ahh sige tsupain mo pa.” Panay ang ungol niya habang labas pasok ang mahaba ang mataba niyang burat sa bibig ko. Ilang beses pa ay napaimbit siya. “Ayan na ako, ahh puta. Lunukin mo tamod ko..” Biglang may mainit na likidong lumabas sa kanyang uten at pumuno sa bibig ko. Sa dami nito ay nalulon ko ang iba at ang iba nama’y nagsimulang lumabas sa gilid ng aking bibig. Amoy klorox. Malapot. Magkahalong alat at kaunting tamis at asim ang lasa. Eto pala ang tamod.

Nang mahimasmamasan siya ay hinugot niya ang titi niya sa bibig ko at itinaas ang kanyang brief at shorts. “Ang galing mong tsumupa Nico. Ang init at lambot ng bibig mo, parang puke.” Tumayo ako sa aking pagkakaluhog at inayos ang sarili. Pinahiran ko ang naiwang tamod sa labas ng aking bibig. “Walang makakaalam nito Nico. At sa susunod ay matitikman mo ulit tong titi ko.”

Matapos ang mga pangyayari ay lumabas na kami sa banyo. Tinungo ni Dominic ang padyak at nagsimulang pumasada. Mukhang ganado siya sa unang araw ng pagpapadyak.

Nalalasahan ko pa ang tamod ni Dominic. Masarap pala. Mukhang hahanap-hanapin ko ito..ang lasa ng tamod at laki ng burat sa bibig ko. Namulat ako sa kamunduhan. Eto ang simula ng pagka-adik ko sa titi.





Abangan ang mga susunod na kabanata sa piling ng padyak drayber at iba pang mga lalaki.




From: Evan

Si Boyet At Ang Masarap Na Hilot

Magandang araw po sa inyo, by the way my name is Chuckie. I have been an active reader and an avid fan of stories posted in M2M sites.

I am presently working, but what I will be sharing to you dear readers is one of my sexperiences few years back in college, so sit back, relax and enjoy.


Hayaan niyong ipakilala ko ang aking sarili. Ako si Chuckie, turning 22 at the end of this year. I am tall, good looking, neat and presentable. But I'm not the type of guy na magugustuhan ng karamihan, hunky, sporty or model type. Sa totoo lang, ang pagkakadescribe ng mga kaklase ko sa akin ay nerd, from the way I look to the way I act. Eh kasi, wala naman akong ibang pinagkaka-abalahan kundi ang academics noong high school at elementary pa ako. Libro lang ang tanging nahahawakan ko buong araw at ang bag ko ay napaka bigat wari ay isang dambuhalang bato ang nasa loob nito. Dagdagan mo pa ng eyeglasses ko kasi nearsighted ako na naging bestfriend ko na since Grade 3.

Discreet po ako. Walang ibang nakakaalam tungkol sa pagkatao ko except sa mga classmate kong iniintriga ang sexualidad ko at hindi ako tinitigilan sa kakatanong hanggat di ako umaaming ganito ako. Hindi rin alam ng pamilya ko na ganito ako, pwera na lang kung naghihinala sila ngunit sa palagay ko ay hindi naman. Lumaki ako sa isang pamilyang pinahahalagahan ang tama at tuwid na landas, at ang patunay nito ay ang tatay kong disciplinarian. Naaalala ko ang mga panahong sinisinturon niya kaming magkakapatid na lalaki kapag meron kaming hindi nagawa sa mga utos niya o kung hindi ay may kasalanan kami. Mabait naman siyang tao pero ang pagpapalaki sa amin ay dinadaan niya sa palo at suntok. Sa nakagisnan kong yun, hindi ako kailanman nagbabalak na umamin sa kanya sa kung sino ako.

Ang pangunahing kabuhayan namin ay ang pag-ooperate ng jeepney. Sa madaling sabi, may-ari kami ng pampublikong sasakyan o jeep. Meron kaming limang unit ng jeepney noong nasa college pa lang ako at ito na ang bumubuhay sa aming tatlong magkakapatid. Ako ang pinakamatanda sa aming tatlo kaya lagi kong pinapakita na magaling ako sa school para meron silang example.


Ang storya ko ay nagsimula noong isang gabi nang matagal akong nakauwi dahil sa practice ko sa karate. Dahil nga "nerd" ang image ko noong high school, sinikap ko sa college na sumali sa iba't-ibang extra-curricular activities upang mapakita ko sa lahat na hindi lang puro libro ang nasa utak ko. Nasa daan ako ng gabing iyon, naghihintay ng masasakyang jeep pauwi, ng may nakita akong lalaking nakangiti na papalapit sa akin.


Pinagmasdan ko siya ng maigi, at pilit na inaalala kung saan ko siya unang nakilala. Malamang nabanaag niya ang pagkalito sa mukha ko, nagpakilala siyang siya si Boyet. Si Boyet pala ay isa sa mga naging kunduktor ng aming jeep at umeextra siya sa gabi bilang carwash boy. Bigla kong natandaan na isa nga siya sa mga carwash boy na nag-wawashing ng aming jeep. Minsan pag uwi ko noon,naaabutan ko siyang hubad ang pang-itaas na damit habang hawak ang water hose sa isang kamay at ang pamunas sa kabila. Moreno si Boyet, matangkad, at macho ang katawan, pogi at may pantay-pantay na ngipin at killer smile na talaga namang pamatay. Lalaking lalaki ang kanyang dating at mala gentleman. Ni hindi kami nagkausap ni Boyet, malamang na rin nahihiya siya sa akin kasi nga kami ang may-ari ng jeep at isa siyang kunduktor. Nagulat na lang ako sa tagpong yun kung saan sinalubong niya ako ng nakakabighani niyang ngiti.


"Saan ka galing?" Tanong niya.

"Galing ako sa school namin," sagot ko.

Boyet: "Ginabi ka yata?"

Me: "Oo kasi meron kaming practice para sa Intramurals."

Boyet: "Uuwi ka na ba? Tara sabay na lang tayo ng uwi, total magkalapit lang ang mga bahay natin."


Sumabay ako ng uwi kay Boyet at sumakay kami sa isang rela. Maliit lang ang rela sa lugar namin kaya naman tabi kaming naupo ni Boyet. Habang pauwi, naramdaman ko na lang na may kamay na nakaakbay sa akin. Naramdaman ko ito dahil mainit ito salungat sa malamig na hangin na pumapalibot dahil nga gabi na. Kamay pala iyon ni Boyet. Hindi naman ako nag inarte at alam ko na walang ibang masamang pakay si Boyet sa akin kaya hinayaan ko na lang siya. Naging kumportable ako sa ayos naming iyon, para bang walang pahamak na darating. Nagsimula siyang magtanong at nauwi kami sa mahabang usapan hanggang sa makarating kami sa lugar namin. Ipinagpaalam niya na malapit na siyang bababa. Doon ko lang naappreciate ang pagkatao niya. Na kahit kundoktor siya ay may respeto siya at pinahahalagahan niya ang kausap niya. Hindi gaya ng ibang kunduktor na kung makita nilang kakaiba ang postura mo ay pagtritripan ka ng kutya.


Bandang alas-dose ng hating-gabi. Naisip kong bumaba rin nang tumigil ang rela sa bahay nila Boyet at ikinagulat niya ito. Hindi na siya nagtanong pa ng sinabing kong gusto kong makita ang bahay nila. Isinama niya ako at inakbayan dahil walang ilaw at madilim ang paligid. Sa puntong iyon ay talagang nahulog ang loob ko sa kanya. Para akong syota niya na inaakay papaunta sa kanila. Saktong malamig ang paligid. Ang saya ko talaga noong panahon na inakbayan niya ako. Nang makarating kami sa bahay nila ay ipinakilala niya ako sa nanay niya at nagpaalam na pupunta muna kami ng dalampasigan. Malapit kasi sa dagat ang lugar namin. Kahit alam kong may pasok ako bukas araw ng Sabado ay pinilit kong sumama sa kanya dahil alam kong may mangyayari kung kaming dalawa na lang ang naiwan.


Dinala ako ni Boyet sa dalampasigan at naging tahimik kaming dalawa. Hindi ko alam kung papaano babasagin ang katahimikan kaya tinanong ko siya, "Marunong ka bang humilot?" Napatawa siya at tinanong ako, "Ikaw ba, marunong?". "Oo naman." sabi ko. Bilang patunay, kinuha ko ang kaliwa niyang kamay at hinawakan. Ang sarap hawakan ang kamay niya pakiramdam ko ay matutunaw ako sa saya. Matapos ko siyang hinilot ay nagpasalamat siya. Ngunit di ako nakuntento at umandar ang aking makamundong kaisipan. Tinuro ko ang kanina pang bumubukol sa kanyang shorts at sinabing "Pwede bang ito naman ang hilotin ko?'.


Wala pang sabi sabi ay hinawakan ko ang matigas na kargada ni Boyet. Binaba ko ang shorts niya at sinimulang dilaan ang etits niya. Talagang napakasarap nun. At ang tigas tigas. Sinubo ko ang ari niya at napaungol siya sa sarap. "Sige pa, sige pa!" Habang lumalakas ang ungol niya ay lalong nawawala ang takot ko na baka may makahuli sa amin na Barangay Tanod na rumoronda sa dalampasigan. Pero tuloy-tuloy pa rin ang biyaheng langit. Sinipsip ko ang mga nakabitin niyang bayag at doon siya napaliyad ng husto. "Aaahhh! Ang sarap!" Binasa ko ng laway ang mga nipples niya at dinilaan. Taas baba ang bibig ko sa naghuhumindig niyang ari. Ang laki siguro mga 8 inches ang haba. Bawat hagod ko sa uten niya ay sinusuklian niya ng nakakabaliw na ungol. Para siyang mawawala sa sarili sa pagtsupa ko sa kanya. Sabi niya, "Cge pa! Aaaaahhh ooohhhh" Talaga ngang ginanahan siya sa pagtatalik namin. Hanggang sa pinutok niya sa isang puno ng niyog ang tamod niya.


Matapos ang lahat ng iyon ay nagpaalam na ako kay Boyet. Maliwanang ang buwan, nalalanghap ko ang sariwang amoy ng dagat. Nakauwi akong may malaking ngiti at masarap na tamod sa aking labi.







From: dirtychuckie

Nurse’s Notes

(The following story is based on my real life. I changed the names of the people involved including myself to keep our identities confidential and the story more private.)





We all live in a modern and complex world where different kinds of people in all walks of life are bound to meet and mingle with one another. We meet other people personally but others are through various media of new technologies such as cellular phones or international networking. Lahat siguro tayo ay umaasa na sa mga taong nakikilala natin ay mahahanap ang isang nilalang na magmamahal kung sino at ano tayo. Isang taong igagalang pati ang pamilya natin at mga taong nakapaligid dito. Ngunit sa dami ng mga taong nakikilala ay hindi natin alam kung sino ang totoo at honest sa kanila. May mga nanloloko, may mga panakip butas ka lang, may peperahan ka lang at meron din yong talagang mahal ka lang. Masuwerte ka kung isa ka sa mga mabibiyayaan ng taong hindi madamot sa pagmamahal at magbibigay sa iyo ng lubos na kaligayan. Kaligayahan na inaasam asam at hinihintay nang matagal na panahon. Minsan ay talagang pinagdarasal pa talaga sa Diyos na sana ay matagpuan na ang taong ito.

Masasabi kung isa ako sa mga masuwerteng nilalang na nakanahap ng isang lalaking tapat at marunong magmahal. Isang simpleng tao na alam kong mahal talaga ako pati ang pamilya at ibang taong mahal ko sa buhay. Nangyari ang lahat ng ito sa hindi ku inaasahang pagkakataon. Isang pagkakataon that I never thought would eventually change my beliefs in love and happiness.

My story tells a lot about this quest for true and real love. I hope it will inspire and make us believe that love can really happen in different circumstances of life. Sana maramdaman natin na hindi mali at imposible ang magmahal at mahalin as long as we have faith and patience. Magsilbi sana itong kaligayahan sa ibang tao na nawawalan ng hope and perseverance to keep fighting for love. Most of all, it will teach us lesson that can help us grow and developm into better individuals.


I am Michael from Northern Luzon. I am 24 years old and a professional nurse for four years now. I took my elementary and secondary studies here in my own hometown. I graduated Nursing in the year 2007 and took the Licensure Examination for Nurses the same year and sa awa Diyos ay nakapasa naman. I got hired in a relative’s hospital few months after the result came out. At present, I am enjoying God’s given profession to me.

Isa akong typical na Pinoy when it comes to height. Siguro mga five feet six inches lang ako. Medium built and I weigh 55 kilos. Medyo advantage ku lang sa mga taga dito sa amin medyo maputi ako. I have brown eyes and red lips. Di naman sa pagmamayabang peru guwapo daw aku sabi ng iba. Yung mga patient ku sabi nila hawig ku daw si Coco Martin or John Lloyd Cruz.

Bata pa lang aku when I was still eight years old, I knew na iba aku sa mga normal na batang lalaki. Medyo hindi magaslaw ang kilos or yung typical na gay na bata peru hindi naman aku kumekembot pag naglalakad. Pag tinitignan ku yung mga photo ko nung bata aku I could say na I was really different since then. Naalala ku nung Grade 3 aku naglalaro kami ng mga kaibigan kung girls aku ung parang majorette ng banda tapos sila yung drummer at dancers. May mga instances din na nagbabahay bahayan din kami nanay aku tapos tatay yung kaibigan kung babae. Sa school habang naglalaro, pinanpatungan aku ng mga kaklase kung lalake na parang nirerape aku at gusting gusto ku naman nang patago. Tumitigas din ari ku pag ganun.

I started masturbating when I was in secondary school. Pag nakakapanood aku ng bold movies pinagnanasaan ku yung lalake. Attracted din aku sa mga lalake that time sa school. May mga nanunukso din meron din yung parang nagpapakilig minsan noon.

May crush aku noon sa school namin peru ngayon asawa na ng kabarkada ku. Gusto ku yung mga medyo maitim. Yung lalake talaga ang itsura at lalo na sa mga kalbo. Super attracted aku sa mga matatangkad na malaki ang katawan yung tipong masarap at malakas ang dating talaga. Example sa mga nagbabasketbol at mga kargador. Parang naglalaway aku pag nakakakita aku ng mga ganung lallaki.

Since Nursing student aku dati nakakakita aku ng mga organ ng pasyente ku na talagang kinagigiliwan ku naman. Lalo na sa mga may catheter at dun sa mga naooperahan. I can say na may pagkahorny din talaga aku.



May mga kabarkada aku dito sa lugar namin, five of them are girls at dalawa ay lalake. Isa sa kanilang dalawa ang aking naging first boyfriend at masasabi kung first experience ko din. Magkasingtangkad lang kami ni John at same body built. Mas maitim lang siya at mas lalake ang itsura sa akin. May bigote nang kunti at red lips. Masarap siyang humalik at mabango ang kanyang titi. Size siguro mga 6 inches na mataba sa puno at medyo matulis sa dulo.

Fourth year college aku noon and few months bago mag December. Naginuman kaming magbabarkada isang gabi sa bahay ng isang kaibigan namin ng GSM Blue yun kasi brand namin dati nung medyo nalasing na kami medyo nagsasayawan na kami. Kaming mga lalake ay nagsimulang maghubad ng shirts while dancing ng medyo sexy ng tugtug yung tipong pang dirty dancing. Tapos di ku namalayan dinidikit katawan ni John sa akin, that time talagang pawis na kami. Aaaaaaahhhhhh at naginit bigla katawan ku. Yung mga dikit ay nagging haplos haplos na at talagang nakakalibog. Dinidikit nya titi nya sa likod ku at pag nagkaharap kami ay iba na yung tingin nya sa akin. Pagkatapos ng ilang tugtog nagpahinga kami. Nagyosi aku sa labas habang nakaupo nang bigla siyang tumabi. Dinilaan na lang niya bigla ang tenga ku at nakiliti talaga aku. Tumigas na titi ku noon at halatang nalibugan aku. Sabi nya, “sarap mu naman Michael gusto kitang halikan” at aku naman ay nakatitig na lang sa kanya. Di ko lubos maisip na ganito pala ang kabarkada ku. Bigla akung hinalikan, “uuuummmmm sluuurp mmmm” nasarapan aku at tinuloy namin sa mas matinding laplpan. Di ku alam kung nakita o nahalata kami ng iba naming kaibigan sa ginawa naming yun. Tumayo ako at bumalik sa loob para tumagay. Nang nakailang tagay na aku, “nasaan si John?” sabi nung isa at sagot ku naman, “nasa labas yata”. Lumabas aku para tignan si John nandun cya sa may duyan na nahahiga. Pinuntahan ku cya at tumabi sa kanya. Bigla niyang kinuha kamay ko at sinabing “hawakan mu titi ku Michael himasin mu”. At ginawa ku naman hinimas ku hanggang tumigas nang tumigas. Di ako nakuntento at ipinasok ku kamay ku sa loob ng short nya at, “AAAAAaaaaahhhh sarap naman cge paaaaaaaaaaaa”, sabi nya. Naramdaman ku may pre cums na cya at nilaro ku naman sa may dulo ng titi nya ang madulas na laway na lumalabs dito. Bigla kaming naghalikan ulit habang ginagawa ku yun sa kanya. After few minutes bumalik kami sa loob tuloy parin ang inuman ng iba at nakitagay na din kami ulit.

Few minutes bago kami umuwi nagtext cya sakin at tinanung kung uuwi na ba aku after nung inuman namin at sabi ko naman oo. Nagreply siya at sinabing ihahatid ku daw cya sa bahay nila.

Uwian time na, gamit yung motor ku cya ang nagdrive at umangkas aku. Habang nasa daan kami di ko mapigilan sarili ku hinimas ku ulit titi nya at sabi nya, “may pupuntahan tayo”. Dina ko nagdalawang isip umoo na agad aku. Pumunta kami sa isang park naghanp kami ng madilim na part. Nung nakapwesto na kami eto na laplapan na kami nang todo laway sa laway soabrang mapangahas na halikan talaga. Tinanggal nya shirt nya at aku din tinanggal ku na din shirt ku. Niromansa ku cya sa leeg sa may tenga at pabalik balik sa dibdib dinila dilaan ku pa otong nya at, “Michaeeeel aaaahhhhh sarap naman nyan cge pa”’ sabi nya at lalo ku pang pinasarap si John. Habang ginagawa ku un hinihimas ku din titi nya na talagang sobrang tigas na din at hindi aku nakapagpigil isinubo ku na ng buong buo at panay “uuuuhhhhh aaaaahhhh cge pa ang sarap blisan mu ang pagchupa isubo mu lahat”, sabi nya sakin na cya ku namang ginawa. Nang pinagsawaan ku titi nya bumalik aku sa halikan namin, tapos siya naman ang nangromansa sa akin, “yeahhhhh John sarap mu tlaga uuuuhhhhh” nasasarapan aku sa pagdila nya sa buo kung katawan. Sa leeg dibdib. Nung nagsawa siya eh pinatuwad aku at bigla niyang dinilaan puwet ku. “oh my ang sarap nyan John cge lang lick it more lick it harder”, ang sabi ku. Nung nalubricate na pwrta ku tinutok nya titi nyang naglalaway sa puwet ku at dinahan dahan niyang pinasok. “ooooohhhhhh John ooooh John fuck me more bilisan mu para mas masarap pa”. nagkadikit na na ang pawisan namin at hubad na katawan habang kinakabayo ako ng isang masarap na lalaki. “mmmmmmmm uhlllm mmmmmm” dinidilaan nya tenga at batok ku habang panay ang kadyot sa akin. Sinasabay ku naman katawan ku para lalong mabaon ang burat nya sa likod ku. “Salsalin kita Micahael para mas lalo kang masarapan sabi nya sakin’’, at lalo akung nalibugan sa ginawa niyang yun. Panay uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh yeah saraaaaaaaaaaaaap ang mga nasambit naming habang nagsesex kami. Sabi nya lalabasan na daw siya at aku din sabi ku, then “uuuhhhhhhhhh aaaaaahhhh ahhhhh uuump ummmmp” aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh habang ipinutok nya tamod nya sa loob ku aku nam aku ay nilabasan na at sarap na sarap kami pagkatapos nung ginawa naming. Umaatikabong halikan ang nangyari after nun. Nagdecyd na kaming umuwi. Hinatid ku sya sa kanilang bahay ay aku naman ay umuwi din sa amin. Mga 3am na when I got home. Since then a deeper relationship sprang, more than friendship. Nakailang sex din kami ni John sa iba ibang lugar. Minsan sa tabi ng dagat nung pumusyal kami once. One time din sa isang madilim na daan papuntang beach sa amin. Nalaman din ng mga kabarkada namin ang tungkol sa relasyon at tinaggap naman ang desisiyon na ito. Naging kami for a month lang then I decided to cut our relationship due to some personal reasons.

One month after kaming naghiwalay nagkaroon kami ulit nga inuman with my friends this time it was the month of November after naming bumisita sa mga puntod because it All Soul’s Day, nag inuman kami sa bahay ng tito ng isang kabarkada. Mag isa lang kasi siyang nakatira doon kasi ang asawa niya ay nasa Amerika. Halos pareho ang mga ginawa naming inuman, sayawan, yosi at panay tawanan. Habang nagiinuman kami bigla akong lumabas para umihi. Sumunod si John at tinanung ako. “Kumusta ka na Michael?’. Sumagot naman ako, ‘’ok lang naman, kaw?’’. Sabi niya ok lang din daw siya at tinanong kung may boyfriend daw ba ako sabi ku wala. Tapos nag smile lang siya. Pagpasok naming sa loob tuloy ang inuman at sayawan. Yung mga ibang girls kun a barkada nakabra na nagsasayaw sa mga nakakaindak na tugtog. May mga ibang friends din kami na ininvite. May isang guwapo sa kanila at kahalikan siya ng isa kung friend na babae. Hindi ko ba alam peru ito ang mga gawain namin that time, para kaming flirty na magkakaibigan, peru may ilan sa amin na hindi naman.

Tulugan time at doon na kami nagstay for the night dahil lasing na kami at late in the evening na talaga nung natapos kami. Hindi ko alam kung bakit nagkatabi kami ni John. Siguro dahil sa kalasingan ay bigla na lang akong nakahiga without thinking kung sino ang katabi ko kasi nga umiikot na mundo naming lahat. Nang medyo nawala kalasingan ko mga bandang 2am. Narealize ko katabi ku pala si John. Pinagmasdan ko siya, may bigote pa rin at guwapo parin mas lalo yata siyang sumarap. Hindi ko napansin gising pala siya ay bigla akong hinalikan. Dahil doon bigla akong tinigasan talaga at naglaplapan kami ng parang namimiss namin ang isat isa nang sobrang tagal. Dinakma ko ang titi ni John at tigas na ito. Hinimas niya din ang nagtitigas nang titi ko at kapwa kami nagpakasawa sa paghimas sa mga taguro naming na talagang nakakalibog. “ang sarap mo pa rong humalik John,’’ sabi ku sa kanya. ‘’Wala kang katulad ang init ng bibig mu at ang likot ng dila mu’’, at dahil dun mas lalo niyang pinasarap ang paghalik sa akin at ako naman ay napapaliyad sa sobrang sarap na puno ng kalibugan at pagnanasa sa ginagawa naming pagpapaligaya sa isat sia. Nang hindi na namin mapigilan ang sarili namin, tumayo na kami at humanap ng isang bakanteng room.

Pagpasok namin sa room, naghubad na kami agad na parang nagkaintindihan na talaga kami ng gagawin. Mainit doon kaya nagpawis na kami agad. Ang sarap ng pawis na nagsesex dahil talagang ramdam mu ang init ng katawan ng lalake at talagang nagpapalibog sa akin ang mga pawis sa katawan ang sarap dilaan pag ganun. Ayun naghalikan ulit kami, espadahan noang todo at himasan. ‘’uuuhhhhh aaaahhhh’’ ang mga ungol namin sa loob ng room. Naglalapat ulit ang mga pawisan naming katawan at diko mapigilan na dilaan ang tulo ng pawis ni john sa katawan. Sa leeg niromansa ku siya pababa sa nipples siya. Pinaikot ikot ko ang dila ko sa magkabilang nipplies habang naghihimasan kami ng taguro. After noon sinubo kun a ang titi niya, ‘’John ang bango naman parang sarap paglaruan’’, sabi ko at sumagot naman siya, ‘’Sige lang Michael pagsawaan mu katawan ko masarap ako dib a?’’, sabi niya sa akin. Hindi na ako sumagot sinubsob ko na ang mukha ko sa pagchupa sa kanya pabilis nang pabilis at apwis na pawis na talaga kami. ‘’ooooooohhhhhh yeah Michael namnamin mo ang sarap ng titi ko iyong iyo lang yan’’, ang sabi niya sa akin. Dinilaan ko pati singit nya, katawan, sa kili kili at sa leeg ulit. Sarap na sarap si John sa ginawa ko sa kanya. Nung nagsawa kami sa ganun dinilaan na niya puwet ko at sobrang nasarapan ako doon. Napapaungol ako habang pinipigilan ku sarili kung umungol nang malakas dahil baka marinig kami ng iba naming kabarkada at nakakahiya sa may ari ng bahay. Napapa suntok na lang ako sa pader sa sobrang sarap ng nararanasan ku that time at nang nagsawa siya tinutok na niya sa puwet ko ang titi niya. ‘’uuump ugh uuuummmp ahhhhwhhhhhh uhhhhhm uuuuuahhhhhh’’, kapwa naming ungol habang binabayo ako ng isang masarap at pawisang lalaki. Dahil sa sobrang sarap di nagtagal, ‘’Ayan na lalabasan na ako Michael’’, sabi nya at sinabi kung ‘’oh sige salsalin na natin isat isa at magpalabas tayo sa dibdib natin’’. ‘’uuuugggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh yyyyyeahhhhhhhhhhhh ooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhh sarap ahhhhhh putang ina’’, kapawa kami nilabasan sa dibdib namin at nagpunas na kami, nagayos bago bumalik sa higaan.

Pag gising naming lahat, nagbreakfast kami at parang walang nangyari sa nagdaang gabi. Tawanan, kantyawan at halaklakan. Ito na ang buhay naming magkakaibigan that time. Namiss ko ang ganitong gawain nang mga sumunod na buwan dahil naging busy ako sa pagtatapos ko accomplishing all the requirements needed for me to graduate in my course.

I graduated salutatorian nung elementary ako, first honor yung isa ku ding kabarkada. Masasabi kung may tinatagong galing din ako kahit papano dahil kahit easy go lucky ako nung college eh nakapaggraduate aku ng mabuti sa college nang hindi masyadong namroblema sa mga school work. My father is a teacher and my mother runs a small family business until now. I have two brothers at the moment.